Mika Yeap, wow, this is very honest. Thanks a lot for sharing this.
I resonate with most of what you are saying because I had a similar situation during my upbringing — with my parents. And I know how it feels hearing screams from the other room as a little boy and not understanding whom to blame (because you love both of them).
It’s great that you are so self-aware and talk about your source of motivation. Not many people realize their wiring.
I wish you all the best on your journey. Go get it.